Well tomorrow is the beginning of the final week for this project. I think I'm managing to keep on top of things and it's really weird because never in my long, long, varied educationl journey from one college to another have I ever not left everything to the last minute. I think getting the work done has made the experience more enjoyable because you've got the time to do it and you don't feel as stressed.

I popped into college for a while this afternoon and started to assemble my model. I just need to touch it up and make miniature figures. Last week I made the tables and chairs and after I got into it I found it quite theraputic. Before model making used to make me freak out and if I'm honest sometimes I still explode or launch the occasional stanley knife at Grant or whatever but on the whole I'm finding it more enjoyable and rewarding than when I first attempted it during term 1.

On Friday afternoon we had technical drawing. Hopeless is the best way to describe me in regard to this craft. It took me two hours to draw an elipse (I think that's the word I'm searching for, like a squinty circle I guess) I knew what I was meant to be doing but making dots on lines and using numbers just fries my brain and I feel totally unable to make any sense or reason out of what I'm doing. I can picture in my head what I'm meant to draw fine but when it comes to using numbers and angles it suddenly becomes baffling. The mistakes I'm making look silly and careless but it's not the case because even although I'll think I'm doing what I should be doing correctly I'll then make a mistake that'll fuck up the whole thing and I don't realise or understand where I've went wrong. In the end I managed to do it which is a start but I am going to struggle with this I think.

Talking of challenges I think I'm starting to gain a reputation as a bit of a technophobe. There's rumours of me referring to emails as letters which I'm sure (kind of) I never did. I'm going to try and get on top of this thing and become more confident using computers. My gran is buying me a laptop which is just brilliant. I think having my own computer with programmes I can work on will be a big help for me. The computer we have at home is almost as slow as Langstrand on crutches and every bit as annoying so a new one will be really useful. I have been using the power point and am going to use it during my presentation. I think it'll help me structure my talk a lot better. Sometimes when I stand up to talk I forget what I'm going to say and I think planning out my presentation and giving it a structure will help me improve.

So anyway got a good bit done today which is quite pathetic considering it's Sunday but my hangover was less severe than normal so I decided to take the opportunity to do some work. Getting late now so I'm going to head to bed.